About Transparency

We all have our skeletons.

I started writing about 4 years ago just to express what I was feeling at different points in my life but I was never really sure of what kind of writer I’d be so I just kinda started out writing about love because that was the easiest thing for me to write about, even though I’ve never been in love I grew up watching a lot of romance movies so it just made sense to me, but after a while I realised if I was actually gonna do this seriously I wanted to dig deeper into myself and write about stuff that I was actually experiencing so after months of crying into my notes app on my iphone here I am.

I created this blog and movement called Transparency to spread awareness on mental illness especially amongst the black community for anyone who feels like they experience these feelings that they can’t talk to anyone about, people who are negatively stigmatised by what they’re experiencing, people who may unknowingly suffer from a mental illness and people who just wanna see what goes on in the life of someone who suffers from a mental illness. So, if you’re one of those people or if you just wanna understand, this is for you boo. I’m not gonna lie though I’m doing this as much for myself as I’m doing it for you guys, I feel like being open about the things I’m going through is gonna help lift a massive weight off my shoulders.

I guess I kinda understand why people connect mental illness to hearing voices, seeing dead people and just being plain erratic because that’s how its portrayed in the media and I understand that hearing you have any kind of issue is a hard pill to swallow which is why I’ve decided to take the artistic approach and put it in poetry to soften the blow but really what I’m trying to get out of this is for those who might relate to these poems to seek help whether that be through a support group, counsellor, telephone line whatever. Your best friend could have a mental illness and neither of you would know, it’s not a bad thing and it’s nothing to be scared of alot of people have issues on different scales but it can get worse if left untreated like every other illness out there. So, for anyone suffering from anything mentally you’re not weak, you’re not just a fetish, what you’re experiencing is completely valid and you’re not alone. You’re not messed up or even if you are fuck it own that shit (pardon my language) most humans these days are messed up anyways so really and truly you’re a normal person, like me and you’re definitely not any less than any “healthy minded” person (but is anyone really healthy minded these days? thats the real question). Everyone in this world is just trying to cope with the life they were given the only way they know how, we’re just the ones who do that in slightly unhealthy ways, the only ways we know how but, you’re not alone in this and you don’t have to go through this alone, there’s so many different avenues you can use for help (some of these avenues are listed at the end of this message) I can try to help as much as I can aswell but I’m not a professional and I have to get through whatever this is first before I can really help in a drastic way (i think)  but you guys can still contact me anonymously using the contact page in the menu or by messaging me on my social media which is listed at the end of this hella long message if you ever need to talk or just get something off your chest.

so anyways I hope you guys enjoy what ima be creating from this journey through music, short films, spoken words, vlogs, movies etc etc over the next 5 decades of my life or whatever.

Feel free to follow me on my social media:

instagram – @femmefatalecam_

twitter – @femmefatalecam

If you need professional help I urge you to go see your GP/doctor as soon as possible or use any of these helplines:

Anxiety UK

Charity providing support if you’ve been diagnosed with an anxiety condition.

Phone: 08444 775 774 (Mon-Fri, 9.30am-5.30pm)

Website: www.anxietyuk.org.uk

Bipolar UK

A charity helping people living with manic depression or bipolar disorder.

Website: www.bipolaruk.org.uk


CALM is the Campaign Against Living Miserably, for men aged 15-35.

Website: www.thecalmzone.net

Depression Alliance

Charity for sufferers of depression. Has a network of self-help groups.

Website: www.depressionalliance.org

Men’s Health Forum

24/7 stress support for men by text, chat and email.

Website: www.menshealthforum.org.uk

Mental Health Foundation

Provides information and support for anyone with mental health problems or learning disabilities.

Website: www.mentalhealth.org.uk


Promotes the views and needs of people with mental health problems.

Phone: 0300 123 3393 (Mon-Fri, 9am-6pm)

Website: www.mind.org.uk

No Panic

Voluntary charity offering support for sufferers of panic attacks and OCD. Offers a course to help overcome your phobia/OCD. Includes a helpline.

Phone: 0844 967 4848 (daily, 10am-10pm)

Website: www.nopanic.org.uk

OCD Action

Support for people with obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD). Includes information on treatment and online resources.

Phone: 0845 390 6232 (Mon-Fri, 9.30am-5pm)

Website: www.ocdaction.org.uk


A charity run by people with OCD, for people with OCD. Includes facts, news and treatments.

Phone: 0845 120 3778 (Mon-Fri, 9am-5pm)

Website: www.ocduk.org


Young suicide prevention society.

Phone: HOPElineUK 0800 068 4141 (Mon-Fri,10am-5pm & 7-10pm. Weekends 2-5pm)

Website: www.papyrus-uk.org

Rethink Mental Illness

Support and advice for people living with mental illness.

Phone: 0300 5000 927 (Mon-Fri, 9.30am-4pm)

Website: www.rethink.org


Confidential support for people experiencing feelings of distress or despair.

Phone: 116 123 (free 24-hour helpline)

Website: www.samaritans.org.uk


Charity offering support and carrying out research into mental illness.

Phone: 0845 767 8000 (daily, 6-11pm)

SANEmail email: sanemail@org.uk

Website: www.sane.org.uk


Information on child and adolescent mental health. Services for parents and professionals.

Phone: Parents’ helpline 0808 802 5544 (Mon-Fri, 9.30am-4pm)

Website: www.youngminds.org.uk